May 13, 2016
When we were kids, my dad made us pick the weeds. “Get the roots, or they’ll come back!” He’d tell us. I want to get to the root, so I have decided to leave my country for immunotherapy treatment. My doctors here have been amazing, but we have reached the red tape in the US. They want to ‘watch & treat, watch & treat, whack the mole, whack the mole’.
We learned a lot talking with Dr. Moss (Moss Reports), a man who has dedicated his life researching cancer treatment centers worldwide. Dr. Kleef in Vienna, Austria was his number one choice. As my sister, Andrea, puts it, “Get your schnitzel ON!” Europe has been using immunotherapy to treat cancer much longer then the states. But, it is catching on here like wild fire! It’s an exciting time! Immunotherapy stimulates your own immune system to work harder and smarter to attack cancer cells. Sign me up!
Nobody can make any promises, but I’ve got to try, no stone un-turned, or as we would say in Alaska, ‘no tern un-stoned’ (that would be the Arctic Tern).
In the Big picture of life, 39 days is nothing, right? So, why does it weigh so heavy on my heart? Why do my girls look older then they are? Why is there this frantic feeling to deeply connect with my husband before I depart on my solo quest? I will miss the poppy’s bloom along my fence…
Everything is lightening speed right now and we are losing time, trying to play catch-up. This 2 1/2 year journey for health is now magnified brightly in our realizing faces. My fresh stitches on my chest from having my port re-placed last week is such a stark reminder of everything my body has been thru, my family has been thru, throws me into a turbulent spin….STOP! Bad things happen to everyone, but it’s what you do with it, how you learn and grow from it that matters. We all get swept away into the tornado, just don’t stay there for too long. You must believe with every cell that you will be OK, whatever IT is!
In my case I’m headed to Vienna on a health and spiritual sojourn. I feel it coming from my ancient self that I need to do this alone. No distractions, go deep, meditate, write, heal myself and… go to the opera, of course!
ich liebe dich! I love you!
I’ll land in Vienna May 19
and please listen to Billy Joel, Vienna
Life is beautiful even when we struggle 
Bravest person I know. Prayers ready, fingers crossed, love being sent in English and German and only thinking positive thoughts.
Everyone will be with you. Stay brave and just know so much love is coming your way
Many hugs,
DARRAGH
kann das Licht lieben , die Ihnen Kraft bringt . ich schicke Ihnen auf Ihrer Reise mit all mein Licht und Frieden. 💕
You must try everything, Kaci. Do what it takes. Love, love, love to you, your girls, and Michael.
I love you with all that I am. Save journey and life changing adventure sis. May the healing gods be ever in your favor.❤️❤️❤️
I pray, meditate, and send love and hugs to you, Michael, and the girls everyday.
Kaci, follow your heart – we are with you in spirit and prayers. Be sure to go to the Spanish Riding School performance after you do the opera – in your spare time.
Friend, I just read your blog post. U have To go for it all. Lemonade isn’t made from cherries, it’s made from lemons. U take ur lemons and go make lemonade. Heal, find that this journey is life ahead of you, not stopping you. Use the wind to help you soar into a journey of healing. These wings on this plane will guide you to a healing mama, a mama that is going to kick butt! I love you and am here for you and the girls and Michael. I know ur spinning right now with anticipation and hesitation, with hope and joy of all the possibilities of the unknown. What is known is that you belong on this earth, that you are a warrior, that you are meant to be here to bring light into this world. I am proud to be your friend, to gain strength by watching you, to learn that being sad is ok and how to pick up and keep moving towards positive healing. I love you, my family loves you, and will help with anything you need. Peace, love and healing to you my friend. Xoxoxox Kayla
Love and prayers from the Hoeflings. We are thinking of you daily – your strength and positive attitude are inspiring. We’ll be sending all of our positive vibes to you and your family. Stay strong!!!
A friend of mine once told me that when you meet someone for the first time and you hit it off instantly, that is a God bump. God bumps you into each other, as you are meant to be in each others lives. I truly feel meeting you was a God bump. You are amazing, courageous, brave, and real. I am truly inspired and humbled by you and your beautiful spirit.
I am proud of you for taking this head on, and meeting the challenge in a warrior fashion and in the graceful, courageous Kaci fashion. I see great things coming to you in Vienna and even more God bumps! It is admirable that you are going out and taking care of you and all those you love, by taking this journey. I know you will be dancing in the hills, just like Julie Andrews did in the Sound of Music, dancing to your health and well being. You are in my thoughts, prayers, and will be sending you positive vibes via the universe, daily. As I mentioned today my friend, “You’ve Got This!” We will be in touch, and know we are here for your whole family.
Blessings,
Kim Schmidt
Kaci,
We will be praying for you, I’ve never met such a strong & optimistic person and I know you’re going to beat this thing. Leslie
Courage, stamina, determination, love, family & friends’ supportive energy, and pure go-for-it ~ you’ve got it all Kaci and watch out for anything that keeps you from getting there. We’re all behind you. Love & hugs, Jeanne & Paul
Thank you for sharing your story. I don’t know you that well, but you’re genuine “rock star” and the most courageous women I know. Your energy and positive spirit is so contagious. You and your family are in our thoughts. MUCH LOVE -Jeanvieve and Troy
This post has given me chills. Truly. The idea of the sojourn, of going it alone, of connection to self and other, on what it means to use perspective. You really are amazing and loved. I am with you in spirit. Journey on! Xo my friend.